Panda Samurai

Things i want...

nobody@vox.com(osamu) — Tue, 22 Dec 2009 00:20:05 -0500

So i got bored. Home is boring. I don't want to do any work. SOOOOO im making a list of what I want before/after i graduate and when i have a job/money.

Here goes (not in particular order):

HD LED or LCD TV 32"+ - Samsung LED TV
Home Theatre System (5.1Ch surround)
PS3 - the new slim
iMac - 21.5"
Snowboard (board, binding, boots, goggles) - so i can get better and enjoy it more often. something with a japanese graphic like this one but better... http://images.proboardshop.com/artec-phenom-all-09-zoom.jpg <-- the symbols are made up which means its ugly and not legit
Car' - Mazda3
GPS
Apartment
New phone - blackberry or an android phone
New cell phone plan
iPod - classic. no touch. need space
JOB - an architecture firm
New kendo bogu
New kendo gi/hakama with embroidery
New glasses - i sometimes get lazy putting in my contacts. the glasses right now r 8 years old yet still good
Power Tools

but more importantly i woiuld like to buy MORE money with MONEY if that's possible.... like get 100 dollars for 50dollars...... unlikely

And probably the list goes on. Whatever. It will probably take me YEARS to get all that. haha. we shall see.

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:)

nobody@vox.com(osamu) — Tue, 11 Aug 2009 20:54:27 -0400

The Four Tops-I Can't Help Myself (Sugar Pie, Honey Bunch)

Oooooooooooooooh!
Sugar Pie, Honey Bunch
You know that I love you
I can't help myself
I love you and nobody else

In and out my life(in and out my life)
You come and you go(you come and you go)
Leaving just your picture behind....(ooh)
And I've kissed it a thousand times(ooh)
When you snap your finger, or wink you eye,
I come a-running to you
I'm tied to your apron strings,
And there's nothing that I can do

I can't help myself,
No, I can't help myself,

'Cause, Sugar Pie Honey Bunch
I'm weaker than a man should be
I can't help myself
I'm a fool in love 'ya see

Wanna tell you I don't love you,
Tell you that we're through
And I try....
But ev'ry time I see your face,
I get all choked up inside
When I call your name,
Girl, it starts to flame
Burning in my heart,
Tearing it all apart..
No matter how I try
My love I cannot hide....

'Cause Sugar Pie Honey Bunch
You know that I'm waiting for you(waiting for you)
I can't help myself
I love you and nobody else

Sugar Pie Honey Bunch
I'd do anything you ask me to(ask me to)
I can't help myself
I want you and nobody else

Sugar Pie, Honey Bunch
You know that I love you(I dooo)
I can't help myself...
No... I can't help myself

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blind

nobody@vox.com(osamu) — Fri, 10 Jul 2009 21:48:18 -0400

so some of you know, im trying to become an architect.
and there was a post i made back in the day about which sense if i lose it, will be very devastating to me and my career. that was the lost of sight i believe. becoming blind.

today on my lunch break, i read this interview on architectural record. i envy him and evryone of the architects in the same situation. especially at a time like this.

http://archrecord.construction.com/news/newsmakers/0907Chris_Downey.asp

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LUMENHAUS

nobody@vox.com(osamu) — Fri, 03 Jul 2009 15:20:29 -0400

Check the Virginia Tech 2009 Solar House LUMENHAUS website.

I am currently helping out on this project.

Great website. Please pass on to those you think will be interested.

LUMENHAUS: a brigther way, everyday

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Lesson of Life 1

nobody@vox.com(osamu) — Mon, 22 Jun 2009 20:11:49 -0400

この世の何処にも　お前の場所なんて無い
それは今から　お前が作るんだ

There is no place for you in this world
You have to make it

by 附田祐斗 from 57th

I don't think i ever made a place for myself in this world...
nor in someone's heart...
even if i did i can't keep it...

life is difficult

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fortune cookie

nobody@vox.com(osamu) — Fri, 01 May 2009 00:21:28 -0400

made my day -

fortune cookie that mike gave me cuz he got 2:

"You seek to shield those you love and like the role of provider"

Speak Chinese: She loves you "ta ai ni" :)

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『悲しみ』と『迷い』

nobody@vox.com(osamu) — Wed, 29 Apr 2009 02:31:54 -0400

これほど悲しい思いをしたのは久しぶりだった
あんな小さな会話でこんなに傷つくとは思わなかった

どうしたらいいのかわからない
本当のことを言っても信じてくれない
それほどに俺は、信用されていない

すごく傷ついた
おれは、一度も彼女の事を思ったことはない
そう彼女に言われた．．．

そのはずはない．．．
いつも君のことしか思っていない
君が喜ぶため俺は、頑張ってきた
この三年間ずっと
だけど君はそう思ってくれてない

俺は、どうしたらいい？
親から俺の長所は『優しさ』
他人からも何回か言われた
だけどもう信じられない

自分がわからない
自分のことが理解できない
自分の人生、将来、夢、希望、何もかも迷ってきた

本当にこれでいいのか？
俺が、この二十二年間歩んできた道は正しかったのか？
大きな壁に囲まれたみたいに何したらいいのかわからない．．．

このままだと俺はどうなる？
ストレス、怒り、悲しみ
すべてを自分の中に隠してきた
もう限界に近い．．．

笑顔で隠してきた本当の自分．．．
みんなは、どう俺を見てくれるんだろう？

この俺を見ても逃げないで
どうかいかないで．．．

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Random Thought #4: Not Looking

nobody@vox.com(osamu) — Sat, 02 Aug 2008 22:17:28 -0400

my dad just noticed i had a haircut...

wtf

that was like 2-3 weeks ago

this proves how much he doesnt pay attention to the family

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Sick

nobody@vox.com(osamu) — Fri, 11 Jul 2008 19:18:48 -0400

alive: the final revolution

this has got to be the worst i have felt in a while, probably since my freshmen year at VT when i had to go through this strong medication that lasted for like a month.

im feeling a lot better now, but still have sore throat, headache, muscle ache, etc. etc. just dont have a fever anymore. I dunno how high my temperature was, but I can say that it was atleast 100. my face was burning. during work, i was fine, then all of a sudden i was getting cold. i thought the room temperature wasn't that cold but i was shivering then my fingers started to get numb from the cold. thats not good. then my face started to get hot. left work, got bak home, passed out, and woke up around 5pm today. i was in bed the whole time. didn't feel like moving even if I was awake.

but yea, being sick really does suck. i woke out of my bed cuz i didn't want to stay in bed the whole day. feeling a lot better. hopefully i get fully better soon.

changing the subject, i have been looking on the internet a while ago and found this manga i was reading to become anime. great. its called Alive: the final revolution. the story is weird but very unique. a sci-fi story. go to wikipedia to find out more about the manga. click here

so i was wondering which animation studio will make this anime. hopefully its a good one. then i found out its GONZO. AWESOME. you wanna know why thats great? cuz their work includes:

Basilisk
Samurai 7
Hellsing
Bokurano
Gantz
Black Cat
Afro Samurai

and im also pretty sure the video for Linkin Park's Breaking the Habit was by GONZO too. Also Dream Theater's Forsaken i really wanna see this anime now. manga is really good. hopefully they wont do anything weird to the anime, or cut it off at the weirdest part like all these other animes. they cant cut it off... if they cut it off at the part where i think, its not right... but if they do, they have to do it there, but thats gonna suck. but i have a feeling its gonna be around 24 episodes....

hopefully it comes out soon... they still haven't decided yet. finally just got who the staff and all that is. i wanna watch NOW.

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Random Thought #2: Disgrace

nobody@vox.com(osamu) — Fri, 27 Jun 2008 21:03:38 -0400

Disgrace
–noun

1.	the loss of respect, honor, or esteem; ignominy; shame: the disgrace of criminals.

2.	a person, act, or thing that causes shame, reproach, or dishonor or is dishonorable or shameful.

3.	the state of being out of favor; exclusion from favor, confidence, or trust: courtiers and ministers in disgrace.

–verb (used with object)

4.	to bring or reflect shame or reproach upon: to be disgraced by cowardice.

5.	to dismiss with discredit; put out of grace or favor; rebuke or humiliate: to be disgraced at court.

(disctionary.com)
I believe some people are a disgrace to human beings. For instance, when I was going back home on the subway, walking up the stairs to the Metro-North Railroad, there was a guy... I don't know if he is acting or not, but it's still wrong in my opinion. He was blind... like the previous blog I wrote, I saw another guy yesterday. However, unlike the other guy I talked last time, this guy had big thick black sunglasses so you can't see his eyes and was hitting people with the walking stick. It seemed as if he was hitting people on purpose. He wasn't even trying to walk. He was rather holding a cup so people can put in coins in there for him when people feel sorry. He just stood there trying to trip people with the cane... "oh sorry, my bad. im blind. i can't see... oops didn't mean to trip you." He just kept doing that to people as they came up. It was weird because once the guy tripped someone, he turned to the guy and sed sorry I'm blind. That seemed suspicious, because the guy was still walking and how can a blind man know where exactly the guy is moving to... Even if you're blind, I don't think it's right to trip people, and hold a cup to get money. He's a shame and a disgrace. He's making all the people who are actually blind and trying their best look bad....
Another person I saw that I really thought should be ashamed of herself is a girl trying to buy tickets at the machine. Right next to the other machine was a guy, who looks homeless and poor. Old ragged clothes and dirty socks. He was holding a cup and was sitting on a milk crate. He was talking to a nice guy who was trying to buy tickets at the machine. Let me call the bum, X because I don't think bum is a right word to use for him. But well, so X was talking to the guy and was leaning forward. All of a sudden, the milk crate tipped over, X flew off from his seat, and X's coins flew everywhere. When that happened, everyone looked at him and see what was going on. On the other hand, that "girl" turned around and started bursting into tears.. LAUGHING. oh my god. I kinda wanted to punch that girl. No one else was laughing except for her. I mean, it might be funny if it was a person you knew, but X was in pain and was about to cry because he lost all his coins. I felt so bad for him. I tried to go over and help him pick up his coins but there was traffic coming and I couldnt go back at all. However, it made me happy... that guy who was talking to the guy helped him get all his money. He helped X pick up the coins. Even the ones on the opposite side of the bar where you can't reach unless you use your metro card and get in. I felt really satisfied with that that someone here still has a heart and sympathy left. The girl... is someone that is typical these days. Someone who laughs at every single misfortune a person encounters. It doesn't feel good when people laugh at you for your misfortune. If something very unlucky happens to that girl and everyone starts pointing and laughing, she would be sad. If you think about it that way, it's not a good thing to laugh at someone's misfortune. Try to think about yourself in that situation. I try to do that these days and I have been seeing things differently. Differently as in the way I look at people, how i observe people, and the reasons for their actions. I am trying to become a much better person than I was back then... How am I doing right now? Not good I bet. lol. But I am trying... good luck to me

Spitz - チェリー (Cherry)
A song from 1996. A very nice song. "with just the sound of 'I love you' it feels like I can become stronger, hugging a small bit of happiness tightly"
安室奈美恵 (Amuro Namie) - Can You Celebrate?
All time, number one song for a wedding. I remember this song was always number one in that category in japan. Listening to the song, melody, and lyrics, I believe that's true. "Can you celebrate? Can yo kiss me tonight? We will love... long, long time." Here's also a cover of this song in korean by Seo Yeon.
Every Little Thing - Time Goes By
A very nice song again from 1998. This was always on top in sales. I think I noticed that I think all these songs I like are mostly based on love, getting separated, or being together. All these songs' lyrics are great, rather than those rap songs in english.... at the same time the lyrics are good, the melody and evrything is good. You need to watch this collaboration in 2007 with Makihara Noriyuki, a guy with a great voice, of the same song.. here.

And this is a new song i found a while ago. From the look of the guy, I thought he will be hip hop or something but... not at all. Hear him sing and you will know why. GREAT song. nice melody, nice lyric. nice voice. NAO - PaperMoon

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